Big Times

I realize I've pretty much purposely abandoned this writing project, I think for a couple of reasons. Foremost, it seemed futile on a couple of levels, primarily being, no one of the greater public was reading it anyway. Secondly, even if someone were to read it, they weren't getting full honesty as I am accustomed to and even adamant about. I hardly see what the point is to take a snapshot of my life if it's not of the whole picture anyway. I have never had to hide things or be evasive or omitting of anything, let alone huge things, but sometimes such things have to be done for a time. I don't intend it to be forever and not even for much longer, but until I can cast that elephant from my room, there's not really a point in "updating" because I'm not really updating anything in my heart at all, and that's where I've always written from.

Lastly, I guess this blog accomplished the purpose I had given it, which was to jumpstart my writing habits again/finally/for the first time...and it did. I've now got nearly $700 in my paypal account solely from writing endeavors - and extremely casual, low stress ones at that. It was just what I wanted and needed, just a start, to begin the habit, and to get a taste for what it's like to make money doing what I do. I'm consumed at the moment with other things as well, but it is of great enticement to know that lurks, ever-ready, waiting for me to seize the infinite opportunities that exist for me to wield my pen at.

And, just like that, once the preamble is laid, my spark to inspire the writing despite all these things has faltered. Not for good, just for tonight. It is late after all. But...I might as well post this anyway, and maybe next time I can get right to it.

Suffice it to say for now then, that big things are on the horizon. Sjoerd arrives in 3 days.